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Saturday, January 04, 2003 Can you sleep at night? Holiday is a not such wonderful thing, except you do not abuse it. I had not taken any long break for 17 months or so before this one, so I spoiled myself with a lot of sleeping, cooking and eating, blogging and movies. I wish relaxing would prepare myself better for the new semester, but it turns out I felt much worse now. I guess the messup mainly caused by sleeping too much in the morning. I had not been awake before noon since beginning of the break (it is like 20 days ago). It was too late when I started to realize that I was not able to wake up in the morning. I am not quite sure which comes first: sleep too late or get up too late, but one resultes on the other and the loop goes on for ever. I was very realistic to put just a very limmited workload for the break. But it is still the first thing being kicked out by my daily schedule: can't work in the morning because I'm not awaken, can't work in the afternoon because when I finish lunch, daily newspaper and cleaning-up and sat down it's already dawn and it's been evening when I finish emailling, daily website surving and blogging (They always come first before work). And then it is time for preparing big dinner and eating again. When all the housework done, it is late night, which of course is not a time for work in the holiday. My irregular sleeping pattern is getting worse and worse, even pills and wine could not help me sleeping anymore. Watching puzzle movies like Mulholland Drive and Memento also kept me insomina whole night to piece the stories together in mind. Now it is only one week away from the school, I'm a kind of scared. Maybe I'm just lack of motivation in the holiday, so that I could not get up in the morning. But this insomina had haunted me for a long time, I guess holiday just gave it a good excuse to take me up. So by this blog entry, I'm also calling for effective therapy. posted by lmeimei @3:38 PM| permanent link| | |
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